Sailing

I believe I am in many ways unique and special, we all are.
There is great confusion as to why ego deflation, humiliation, and punishment have to be a part of 12-step programs.

Judgment of "sick" people by their peers makes even less sense, and it's been one hellofa long time since I felt acceptance by people in these places.

I'm considering a hiatus from this blog, a time to get my bearings, a time to find the friend within me, the woman i used to love a little. I am hungry, angry, lonely and tired. Mostly lonely for like-minded souls.

Ones who love me as I am, not pray for my salvation by their God. It gets old fast, the walls just become bigger, stronger, better reinforced.

So for tonight, I will crawl into a freshly made bed, with a freshly bathed Mer, and breathe in his sweetness. Knowing this moment will be simply a memory as soon as slumber takes us sailing wide.

Comments

[Linda]

I will miss reading your postings. I too have had my ups and downs and fights with demons. But I do know there is always an around the corner where things do get better.

Happy Saint Patrick's Day,
Slainte, Saoirse

[Chelsea]

I understand the emotional need for a hiatus, and I'll miss you if/when you're gone. Just don't forget to come back!